Monday, October 29, 2007

One tough week :(

I new it would be hard, but I never imagined how hard. Yes, I went back to work this week after 9 weeks of just sitting and holding my Sailor girl. I only work 4 days so this is supposed to help, however, I am waiting for the help part to kick in. I have to say it honestly did get better after the initial Tuesday morning drop off at the sitter, however, I don't think I have ever had a lump in my throat for so long in my life. I love to talk about Sailor but everytime someone would ask about her at work I just walked really fast and would say she is great.
I did get a special delivery at work...Sailor with the help from Aunt Heather decided to send me a message telling me that she was doing good. I think this was supposed to help but it made not only me but all of my co-workers and the patient I was seeing at the time cry as well.
The flowers are beautiful and it did make me smile after getting choked up a bit.
Thanks Sailor and Heather!


Tabitha said...

That is sooo sweet!!

Brad, Tara, Cooper and Connor said...

Nikki- What can I say... I truly can sympathize with ya. You can never imagine or describe the awful feeling of leaving your child for the first time to "go to work". I remember having to keep busy, busy the whole week to keep from thinking about it. Let me just say that in a month it will be all better and you wont think much of it. You always miss them but it gets easier is all. Hope you are doing better now. I will be praying for you!